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[Thu 26 Nov @ 9:53pm] |
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After talking with Lisa Marie the other day, it occurred to me that I hadn't done a reading in a while. At least a couple of weeks. With my ever changing situation with employment, I figured it was time to pull out the decks again. I'm going to do a general reading, with a card deck, and then a work related reading with my Art Nouveau deck.
( General Cartomancy )
Well, that was pretty clear. From what I can figure, Pat is headed towards success with his new job and new certification in Java. Meanwhile, I've had trouble at work, but it's nothing that some thinking and some spellwork can't fix :)
( Work Reading )
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| Tarot Reading and Negativity |
[Sat 5 Sep @ 1:58pm] |
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Hey peeps,
It's been a long time. I have been so out of it lately. This funk has really got me down. I'm trying to stay positive, but I'm finding myself knee deep in negativity. I have a friend who is hopefully going to help me out with a cleansing ceremony to help clean some of this stuff out. I feel so weighed down.
In the mean time, I've been trying to start The Artist Way again, but I keep...forgetting about it? Being too busy? I don't know. Coming up with any and every reason not to do the morning pages. I'm really going to try, but it's hard. I guess that's kind of the point.
So, the other day, during the full moon, I did two tarot readings. One, what I need to do to get my career going, and two, how to handle this negativity and where do I go, spiritually, from here.
I am confused by a couple points, so some feedback is really appreciated and welcome.
Career Paths
The fool spread
Sept 2/09
1. Me, in this situation, in the present: Knight of Coins
Useful person, competent, mature, stable, practical, application of talent and potential, hard worker, goals, beginning a new stage of work, career development, careful preparation, consistent effort made. Auspicious event on the horizon, learning through apprenticeship, new eyes, carrying jobs with determination and focus.
2. What I've relied on in the past: Chariot R
Inaction, impatience, collapse of plans, unrealistic, incomplete work. Ok, so is this what I've done in the past? What I need to overcome?
3. Risks I need to take to move forward Page of Cups
Inspiration, creativity, invitation or offer coming, new plans, trustworthy person, new talent put to practical use, results in serenity and happiness, new relationships, new phase. Intention determined and linked with planning for emotional change, emotional realizations, perceptions, awareness, new social contacts, period of withdrawal for introspection.
4. Fears, which can be real or imaginary, grounded in the reason of the situation or founded in panic.: 4 of Wands R
Small reward, disorganization, work dissatisfaction, delays, falling out of love with your choices, disruptions at home.
5. The unknown, what you have to gain, the learning you will come by, the experience and maturity that can be had, the life you can be living 9 of Swords R
Oppressed by troubles, opposition to ideas raises self-doubt, impaired communication
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Ace of Swords R Obstacles, inaction, embarrassment, tyranny, hindrance, plans delayed.
What does that mean? Any ideas?
6. Advice Temperance
Need for harmony of the rational and the intuitive, blending of ideas, inspiration,
Negativity and Spirituality
My own spread
Sept 2/09
1. Current Situation The Empress R. NOTE: This is a card that I have associated with myself, along with the Q of Swords.
Potential unrecognized, slowed progress, vacillation, blocked creativity NOTE: Blocked Creativity makes me think about my stalling on The Artist's Way
2. Obstacles 10 of Swords
Moving on from hard times, a finality, ability to succeed, tested and surmounted after fear of failure, courage and willpower needed for improvement, extreme change, learning from lessons, accepting that the worst is over, fresh start, new assessment, exhaustion, sadness, able to finish a difficult task.
3. What I should focus on Wheel of Fortune R
Short-term successes, the small thing, new goals replace old ones.
4. Hidden forces at work 3 of Cups, R
Excesses, over indulgence, unappreciated, prestige diminished. Huh? What do you make of this?
5. Emerging forces Knight of Coins R (Note: same card as last reading, but reversed)
Recklessness, foolhardy, moving too quickly, complacent, idleness.
6. Advice The Sun
Achievement, cultivated results, life-giving energy of the sun, happiness from material and physical well-being, results come from hard work, satisfaction of a job well done, growth, children, new beginnings, marriage.
7. Results Knight of Cups, R
Deception, unworkable ideas, opportunistic person, conniving, sly, fraud, schemes, swindler.
Ok, so there you have it. I'd love to hear what you think.
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[Sat 1 Aug @ 11:20pm] |
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Windy Day, Sakamoto Maaya |
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Using my Shakespeare deck.
King of Coins: Well thought out quests. stability, practical, intelligent, does not act out of passion. Focused.
Lady of the Chalics, R: Suggests unpleasant news, someone who is weak, overly sensitive, deceptive, ingratiating, afraid to love, needs constant reassurance of another's affection, obstacles or distractions.
The Tower: Dramatic upheaval that turns everything on its head, disruption can be sudden and shocking, may be a much needed wake up call, a clean sweep of old routines, destruction of the protective shell, opportunity to shift towards something more positive, need to start over.
5 of Quills "I summon up remembrance of things past" Sonnet XXX: Lost friendship. Pain of loss is palpable and unrelieved. Nostaglia for unrecoverable time that has been waster and a tendency to dedge up past occurrences in light of present situations. Thinking is fragmented, only remembering bits and pieces, disconnected. Confront circumstances honestly in order to move on. A trial. It's a no-win, examine your own best interests, motives and loyalties.
Advice-
Lady of the Chalices, R again.
Queen of Scepters, R. Narcissism, isolation, selfishness. Someone is procrastinating, weak-willed, directionless, hysterical, unpredictable, scattered. OR, may mean a tempermental domineering crual woman or an ambitious schemer.
8 of Scepters, R. "All things be ready if our minds be so" Henry V.: Too much action with too little thought, wasting energy, communications gone awry, obstacles.
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| Wake Up Call |
[Tue 30 Jun @ 7:41am] |
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I went to me best friend Sarah's shower this weekend and had a lovely time. I was running seriously behind that morning, so I threw on a few pieces which I thought were flattering. Unfortunately, seeing the pictures now, I looked so very pregnant. I'm on the left.
This, for me, is sort of a wake up call. Putting off working out, putting off eating right, it's showing very clearly on my body. I have never in my life looked this bad. I am back up to my biggest weight, and I am seriously depressed.
I have to be proactive in this. I can't expect change and results if I don't make a real effort.
I want to get back to this:
It's funny, but I hated that picture when Nathan took it. I thought it made me look fat. Who would have thought that today, it would be a goal.
Tonight, I'm going to the gym. I need to get back in to this.
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| Then and Now - First steps |
[Sat 6 Jun @ 5:07pm] |
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So, after having worked out this morning here at home, I decided to remeasure myself to give an accurate idea of what my starting inches are. Despite my fear of doing so, I'm going to post them publicly.
What I was when I started bootcamp, two years ago:
Weight: 156 lbs
Right Bicep: 12 inches
Chest: 36 inches
Abdomen: 31.5 inches
Hips: 42 inches
Right Thigh: 24.5 inches
Calf: 14.3 inches
What I am today:
Weight: 155 lbs
Right Bicep: 12 inches
Chest: 37 inches
Abdomen: 30 inches
Tummy: 37 1/2 inches
Hips: 44 inches
Right Thigh: 25 inches
Right Calf: 14 1/2 inches
Knee: 12 1/2 inches
What this tells me: In about two years, I have gained a few inches in some key areas: Bust, Hips, Tummy and Thigh. These are my problem areas that I really want to work on. My goal is to lose inches in those areas. I remember having a 28 inch waist. I want that back. I want my tummy WAY down. There's no reason it should be as extended as my breasts, ya know? I want my hips down to a 40. My thighs have to melt away, because I freakin' hate them.
This weekend was sort of a crap shoot for maintaining my calorie count, but I'm trying. Anyway, now I have a firm idea of where I was then, and where I am now. In a way, it's better than I thought. I was sure I would be a lot heavier now than I was then, however the extra inches make me grumpy. Hard work ahead, but it'll be worth it!
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